In My Heart, Caligula
I’ve been in this war for years.
Fighting tooth and nail, tearing down barriers and walls.
But its all for nothing
I have nothing left.
The spark that shown in my eyes has went out
The fire in my heart
The skin is unfamiliar to me
I know not who I am
Are my needs and desires to grand to be filled?
Am I being punished for something?
Who was I
The life I had before this one
Was it filled with pain and suffering of others
Is that why I feel this all now?
All that I love is dying.
All that was just within a fingers reach
Violently ripped away.
I’m so heavy.
I cannot look up anymore.
The weight of it all
I was so strong.
I was an immovable force.
Not a soul could harm me.
Blood has been shed.
Promises have been made and broken
So much was riding on success
We are conditioned to be the best
Top be at the top
But what happens when we can’t reach it
What happens when you’ve let yourself down
What happens when the people rooting for you have gone?