I feel….like taking peoples heads off today. I don’t know why I’m in such a sour mood. Its a gorgeous day out, and I’m at work. I’m feeling…incomplete. And paraniod.
There’s this girl lets call her Patty who my girlfriends and I used to hang out with a few years ago. We stopped talking to her after something stupid i dont remember what it was. Anyway, since probably late November she started coming back into our lives. And it started because this guy we know whos a friend of ours, started crushing on her. So she was always around and hanging out because of this guy. Then they had a whole blowout and she called him a crazy creep (he kinda is) and bla bla bla now they talk but not as often whatever. idc.
Now, here’s my paranioa starts. She’is a pretty girl. She’s thinner than me. Shes been hanging around us a lot and from what i remember in the past, she’s a big flirt. She does things - maybe without intention, and she just behaves inappropraitely. There’s a list of things she does that i dont like. She’s 23 and she thinks shes got the whole world figured out, and she thinks she SOOOO mature.
She’s loud. She laughs/talks/screams LOUDLY (basically shes behaving how i behaved the last time she saw me which was when i was 20. its like shes trying to behave like me)
She does the violent threat thing that I did when I was 20. “I hate that guy, I want to cut his dick off and shove it down his fucking throat. he’s a disgusting fat, ugly, moronic, immature, creepy pig and bla bla bla bla bla ect ect.” I know it sounds trivial, but I tend to get really creative with the threats, and this is NOT show Patty is. She was never like that…
When we hang out, she’s always asking my boyfriend for bust-downs off cigarettes (even tho i’ll be smoking too)
We had a few friends over a while ago, and she got a little drunk. Even though there were OTHER people at the party she asked my boyfriend to give her a ride home. I said “no…i’ll take u home.” 30 minutes later she asked again “Alan can you take me home” and i looked at her and said “Patty, i said i’d take you home.”
That same night my boyfriend said something funny/smart ass comment, and Patty drunkenly laughs and says “can i pinch AJ’s nipple?” I looked at her with the death glare and said “NO” Not to mention NO ONE calls my boyfriend Alan, “AJ” except for this family and ME when i refer to him in a convo with his family (his dads name is also Alan) I almost killed her.
A few days later me and my best went for a blunt ride with Patty. I was in the back seat, Patty drove and my bestie was sitting shot gun. During the ride Patty starts going off how she loves guys with long hair, and beards. And she loves when guys wear their long hair in a bun, and she loves the lumberjack look….I thought i was going to kick her seat so hard it would launch her through the windshield. MY BOYFRIEND Has long hair which he occasionally wears in a low bun thing, and he’s got a beard..and he looks like a fucking lumberjack. Everyone says so. ALL THE TIME.
I went on his facebook page and she LIKED ALMOST EVERY FUCKING STATUS HE POSTS. Its practically every one. Maybe skipping ONE status…but its pretty much everything. From the his profile picture that she changed, to a Portal 2 reference that she has NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT IT MEANS.
She likes to get drunk and sing “what a man” and girate on whatever is closest to her. A bar, a chair, another girl….but never a guy.
Whenever we pick her up for blunt rides, shes always like “all these guys wanna fuck me. All these guys are on my dick…its sooo annoying bla bla bla”
She keeps saying “im 23, i’m mature. i’m too old for this shit . bla bla bla” while shes in the car with me and i try to tell her “patty…relax..calm down..” and then i offer wise advice from MY personal experiences, and shes just like “no but..” and im like “BITCH..THERE ARE NO BUTS”
When she first started hanging around in November/Dec she would call my boyfriend to smoke/hang out. She had my number…but for some reason she chose to call him….of course he’d tell me “oh patty called..she wants to smoke..do u want to”
Why do i still hang out with her you ask? Because I feel bad for her. Her boyfriend of like…4 years or something, moved to Cali or some shit. And now she doesnt really have many friends because her life revolved around him. And they broke up and she hasnt heard from him since he moved and shes all hurt and she CLAIMS to still be hung up on him…. Also one of my other girlfriends seems to be fading away because she SOOO excited to move in with her stupid fucking boyfriend into his shitty tiny apartment in the city. So i feel like i need another girlfriend. I like having friends.
I don’t think that she would try to steal my boyfriend, because I am bigger and tougher than she is and she KNOWS i would fucking beat the living shit out of her. But that doesnt give me any comfort. My boyfriend was cheated ON in his last relationship..and i’ve read that in some cases…being cheated on turns people into cheaters. I dont think he’d cheat on me. We’ve been together for a year and 6 months now. He tells me that he’s madly in love with me, and that I’m better, prettier, funnier and smarter than Patty and that he loves my body but i still feel…less. I know he loves me…i just feel like he’s been a tad bit distant lately. But i think he’s distant because he’s got a LOT going on his life (his family has to find a house because they have to move over some crazy dumb shit cuz of some law suit from their rich greedy neighboors. ) and thats why he hasnt been able to give me that attention i usually get.
But combine that with Patty and her flirty, trollop like ways- I feel like i’m just dangling by a thread.
I dont know what I’m asking for. Advice? Wisdom? Cheering up? idk.
